crappy ass day

ugh. or at least it started out that way. gotten a bit better so now i'm having just a boring old stupid day.

at any rate, i came into work this morning to find that my transformation didn't work. no colonies growing on my experimental plates. so sad. i get to redo all that today and tomorrow. another digestion, pcr, transformation, and growing cells. as well as making more plates and media and things. it's not like i really expected this thing to work, but it would have been nice i think. oh poop.

this morning i was the world's biggest klutz and spilled lots of water all over my feet and all over the floor. at least it was water and not something scary.

still it was a grumpy morning. and the weather reflected that too which didn't help.

this weekend was good but weird. good because it was very very relaxing and i got to hang out with people at the movies and dinner and i did lots and lots of laundry. but weird in that i kept randomly thinking about this past semester and how much it sucked. which is just what i need right now: to be reminded of all my failures and disastors. big suck. it just makes me feel like a worthless failure.

going to an interesting seminar on proteomics and cd-tagging made me feel better because it was kinda cool. not something i would really want to spend a lot of time doing because it's mostly automated and involves sitting in front of a computer while a program takes pictures of cells, but the end result and the theories behind the technique were cool. actually, didi's friend, scott-not-dai works on cd-tagging proteins in mouse fibroblast cells. and he spends a lot of time in a little closet of a room with the lights off in front of a computer while a programs works with a microscope to take pictures of glowing cells. ah well.

i'm trying to stay positive; it's just not always easy.