and so it goes...

my silence is my self defense

Monday, February 21, 2005

awww how cute

at yale i met a really nice guy (who looks like tom cruise) and hung out with him, erica, and erica's roommate carolyn the whole weekend. he has a girlfriend that he met on a vacation in cancun, and they've been dating long-distance for over a year. today he imed me and asked if the ross park mall was near where i lived in pittsburgh. he gave me some road names which i of course did not recognize because i don't drive in pittsburgh. so i opened up mapquest to try and find it and at the same time imed greg and some of the other locals to try to figure out where this mall is. turns out it's about 20 minutes away in fox chapel. i report back to this guy and ask why he needs to know where the mall is. apparently, his girlfriend only eats red skittles and when he teased her about it one day she told him that if he got her a bag of only red skittles she would marry him. he thought that was a pretty silly reason to marry someone so he's going to get her ther bag of skittles to see what she says. it turns out that there are only two places in the usa where you can get a bag of only red skittles, and one of them is the ross park mall in pittsburgh, pa. how cute is that?

(not as cute as fluffies)

i thought i'd share the story because i think it's a pretty good one and i really don't feel like writing my green chemistry essay on lead poisoning. so there you go.

Sunday, February 20, 2005

after graduation

i think i want to go on vacation someplace really cool for a week between graduation and whatever job i will have this summer. someplace like the mayan ruins machu piccu in peru. i found a great hotel and tour deal that's 2 nights 3 days with the tour of the ruins and tours of some other stuff with transportation in peru provided for only $289 per person. that is awesome. unfortunately, flights are in the range of $800-$1000 round trip. i guess that isn't terrible either though. brings the total for a roughly 4-5 day trip (with all the flight time) to about $1100. i'll have enough money to do that when i graduate, but i don't know if anyone else would be able to come with me. maybe with some frequent flyer miles or something.... or i'd go to europe somewhere. or australia. that would be good to. haven't been there since i was two. anyway, give me ideas and suggestions. and let me know if you want to come too!

fluffies will be going for free. lucky them.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

sick

in the past 36 hours i have eaten a slice of bread and a handful of pretzels, and i've drank two glasses of orange juice and one cup of tea. it's not because i feel naseaus or anything, just that my tummy is generally unhappy and i have no appetite. i want to eat something. ugh. also, my nose is stuffy and i have a slight headache and sore throat. to make matters even better i'm leaving for san francisco in three hours. the five and a half hour plane ride is going to be tons of fun. hopefully i can sleep through it. wish me luck.

fluffies are coming to california with me and they are excited!!

Sunday, February 13, 2005

the pudgy fluffy went to yale to chat with nobel prize winners

yale is hogwarts.

and i bought a cool yale shirt.

and i met some cool people.

that's all i have to say about that.

Sunday, February 06, 2005

this is the loop

and this is me way over here. everytime i leave for a weekend interview i come back and i have no idea what is going on with anyone anymore. this is going to be a fun month of never ever being here. at any rate, the pudgy fluffy is always so happy to see me when i come back home!

chicago was fun; i think i like the school better than penn but i'm not sure yet. the city reminded me of a smaller version of pittsburgh, without all the crazy bridges. but the school is outside of downtown, similar to the way cmu is. the skylines are similar too, except chicago is bigger.

the faculty and students that i talked to were really nice, and my interviews went pretty well. sadly though, i didn't get to bed until after 3:30 last night and then had to get up at 7 to catch my van ride to o'hare. what also sucked is that i thought my flight was at 10:30 instead of 11:30 so i got the airport way earlier than i needed to. so i napped in uncomfortable chairs for a while and knitted until the flight. my favorite part about flying has always been the part just after you take off or right before landing, when you can see all the buildings and exciting things on the ground. flying into chicago at night was neat because the city is a big huge grid and seeing the lights was rather cool. then i flew over lake michigan and it was just black. impressive. flying home this morning was equally exciting. cities are gorgeous from the sky. and the lake was really pretty blue with cute little ice burgs all over the place.

some comparisons between chicago and penn
- the program at chicago is smaller but has more well-known faculty with more interesting research
- the students at chicago are much more hard core work ethic than penn
- chicago is a better city i think
- having a car in chicago is important, not so much in philly
- apartments are slightly cheaper (by $100-$200 per month)in chicago
- the stiped is slightly less (by roughly $1000) at chicago
- i intereacted with faculty much more at chicago than i did at penn, although this may have mostly been due to the snowstorm in philly
- uchicago gave me a nice beer glass and allowed me to get a second city shot glass
- i saw second city in chicago
- there was lots of free beer and wine at both schools; i think this will be a continuing theme

and here's my itinery for the next month. i am travelling everywhere!!

feb 10: yale- new haven, ct
feb 17: ucsf- san francisco, ca
feb 24: duke- durham, nc
mar 2: stanford- stanford, ca
mar 6: toronto spring break vacation

and then i'm done and have to decided where to go for the next 5,6,8, however many years by apr 15. scary.

anyway, what else is going on in my life?

the murder mystery dinner went really well. everyone had a lot of fun and did an awesome job. now i just have to get the tape of the show on dvd and then i can watch it. woohoo. i'm looking forward to the cast party.

i'm only taking 3 classes this semester because i'm lazy. indeed. they are all stupid but interesting classes that involve almost no work at all. it is very good. also, taing is good but i keep missing friday lab classes because i'm away on interviews. research is ok this semester. i hope that i'll be able to have something to write about in my honors thesis.... we'll see how that goes. i want our spec to be fixed so i can do a growth curve!! no one comes to tutoring so i get paid $77 a week to sit and do nothing.

i finished knitting my hat and then left it in gerrit's room over the weekend because i'm stupid. good thing it was warm in chicago this weekend.

in other good news, i get to sing back-up in the wiz for carnival. yay singing!! and counterpoint will actually have concerts this semester, in theory. yay!!

i'm watching the superbowl over at miklos and phil's place today. that will be fun and there will be good food too! i don't really know who else is going though besides me and gerrit and probably deniz. hooray for no school tomorrow!

spring break trip to toronto will be fun and full of adventure, shopping, dancing, and drinking. it will be awesome as long as people are good sports and allow themselves to have fun. i'm pretty excited about it. although it won't be warmer than pittsburgh, and that is sad for spring break trip. but if that's the only bad thing about toronto, then that will be great.

my apartment has gotten less confusing and cleaner in the past week. also a good thing.

so i suppose in general that life is pretty good. there are a few issues and the feeling of being outside the general world occasionally, but whatever. that's what not being around will do to you, i guess. so it's kind of my own fault, but not really.

i am kind of sad about not being able to see the double shot because i'll be in california. sadly, it was the only weekend that i could visit ucsf, which is an important school for me to visit. hopefully, i'll be able to go to a tech week rehearsal or something.

i got a tutoring job tutoring a high school student in biology for a couple hours a week. it will be good money and a good review of basic bio concepts for me. shouldn't be difficut which is awesome. and more money is always a good thing.

the old movie version of south pacific is currently my background noise. this show is really stupid. i forgot how retarted it is.

hmmmm. joe, in reponse to your comment about my meyers-briggs test results, i can't remember how the scores for each category were. i had two that were definitely hard core in the category and the other two were less strong but i can't remember which ones at this point.

this was a long post. but since i never ever post, i figured one long post will make up for not posting for long periods of time.

anyway, the fat fluffy is glad to see me because he missed me a lot this weekend. i am very happy to see him too!

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

i am randomly at home at 2:00 in the afternoon-- this never happens

and then i stole the link in atom's blog....


INTJ
"The Masterminds"
Introverted, iNtuitive, Thinking, Judging

To outsiders, INTJs may appear to project an aura of "definiteness", of self-confidence. This self-confidence, sometimes mistaken for simple arrogance by the less decisive, is actually of a very specific rather than a general nature; its source lies in the specialized knowledge systems that most INTJs start building at an early age. When it comes to their own areas of expertise -- and INTJs can have several -- they will be able to tell you almost immediately whether or not they can help you, and if so, how. INTJs know what they know, and perhaps still more importantly, they know what they don't know.

INTJs are the most self-confident of all types, having "self-power" awareness. The INTJs live in an introspective reality, focusing on possibilities, using thinking in the form of emperical logic, and preferring that events and people serve some positive use. Decisions come naturally to INTS; once decision is made, INTJs are at rest. INTJs look to the future rather than the past, and a word which captures the essence of INTJs is builder - a builder of systems and the applier of theoretical models. To INTJs, authority based on position, rank, title, or publication has absolutely no force. This type is not likely to succumb to the magic of slogans or buzzwords. If an idea or position makes sense to an INTJ, it will be adopted; if it doesn't, it won't, regardless of who took the position or generated the idea. As with the INTP, authority per se does not impress the INTJ.

INTJs are perfectionists, with a seemingly endless capacity for improving upon anything that takes their interest. What prevents them from becoming chronically bogged down in this pursuit of perfection is the pragmatism so characteristic of the type: INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion "Does it work?" to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms. This in turn produces an unusual independence of mind, freeing the INTJ from the constraints of authority, convention, or sentiment for its own sake.

INTJs are known as the "Systems Builders" of the types, perhaps in part because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability. Whatever system an INTJ happens to be working on is for them the equivalent of a moral cause to an INFJ; both perfectionism and disregard for authority may come into play, as INTJs can be unsparing of both themselves and the others on the project. Anyone considered to be "slacking," including superiors, will lose their respect -- and will generally be made aware of this; INTJs have also been known to take it upon themselves to implement critical decisions without consulting their supervisors or co-workers. On the other hand, they do tend to be scrupulous and even-handed about recognizing the individual contributions that have gone into a project, and have a gift for seizing opportunities which others might not even notice.

INTJs do, however, tend to conform to rules, if they are useful, not because they believe in them, or because they make sense, but because of their unique view of reality. They are the supreme pragmatists, who see reality as something which is quite arbitrary and made up. Thus it can be used as a tool - or ignored. Reality is quite malleable and can be changed, conquered, or brought to heel. Reality is a crucible for the refining of ideas, and in this sense, INTJs are the most theoretical of all types. Where an ESTP seed ideas as the pawn of reality, and INTJ sees reality as the pawn of ideas: No idea is too far-fetched to be entertained. INTJs are the natural brainstormers, always open to new concepts and, in fact, aggressively seeking them.

INTJs manipulate the world of theory as if on a gigantic chess board, always seeking strategies and tactics that have high payoff. In their penchant for logic, the INTJs resemble the INTPs. The logic of an INTJ, however, is not confined to the expressably logical. Unlike INTPs, INTJs need only to have vague, intuitive impression of the unexpressed logic of a system to continue surely on their way.

In the broadest terms, what INTJs "do" tends to be what they "know". Typical INTJ career choices are in the sciences and engineering, but they can be found wherever a combination of intellect and incisiveness are required (e.g., law, some areas of academia). INTJs can rise to management positions when they are willing to invest time in marketing their abilities as well as enhancing them, and (whether for the sake of ambition or the desire for privacy) many also find it useful to learn to simulate some degree of surface conformism in order to mask their inherent unconventionality.

INTJs have a drive to completion, always with an eye to long term consequences. Ideas seem to carry their own force for INTJs, although they subject every idea to the test of usefulness. Difficulties are highly stimulating to INTJs, who love responding to a challenge that requires creativity. These personality traits lead INTJs to occupations where theoretical models can be translated into actuality. Teamed with an INTP wh ois the architect of systems, the INTJ provides dimension to an organization which insures that the work of the INTP does not gather dust on library shelves. INTJs live to see systems translated into substance; an INTP, by way of contrast, is content to design the system.

INTJs can be very single minded at times; this can be either a weakness or a strength in their careers, for they can ignore the points of view and wishes of others. INTJs usually rise to positions of responsibility, for they work long and hard and are steady in their pursuit of goals, sparing neither time nor effort on their part of that of their colleagues and employees.

Fellow workers of INTJs often feel as if the INTJ can see right through them, and often believe that the INTJ finds them wanting. This tendancy of people to feel transparent in the presence of the INTJ often results in relationships which have psychological distance. Thus colleagues find the INTJ apparantly unemotional and, at time, cold and dispassionate. Because of their tendancy to drive others as hard as they do themselves, INTJs often seem demanding and difficult to satisfy. INTJs are high achievers in school and on the job. They make dedicated loyal employees whose loyalties are directed toward the system, rather than toward the individuals within the system. So the INTJ has little difficulty with people who come and go at work, unlike an NF would (NFs have more of their loyalties involved more with people rather than offices).

Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.

This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness.

As mates, INTJs want harmony and order in the home and in relationships. They are the most independent of all types. They will trust thier intuitions about others whem making choices of friends and mates, even in the face of contradictory evidence and pressures applied by others. The emotions of an INTJ are hard to read, and neither male nor female INTJ is apt to express emotional reactions. At times, both will seem cold, reserved, and unresponsive, while in fact INTJs are almost hypersensitive to signals of rejection from those for whom they care.

As parents, INTJs are dedicated and single-minded, in their devotion: Their children are a major focus in life. They are supportive of their children and tend to allow them to develop in directions of their own choosing. INTJs usually are firm and consistent in discipline and rarely care to repeat directions given to children - or others. Being the most independent of all types, they have a strong need for autonomy; indifference or criticism from people in general does not particularly bother the INTJs, if they believe that they are right. They also have a strong need for privacy.

Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to "work at" a relationship. Although as Ts they do not always have the kind of natural empathy that many Fs do, the Intuitive function can often act as a good substitute by synthesizing the probable meanings behind such things as tone of voice, turn of phrase, and facial expression. This ability can then be honed and directed by consistent, repeated efforts to understand and support those they care about, and those relationships which ultimately do become established with an INTJ tend to be characterized by their robustness, stability, and good communications.

INTJs are idea people. Anything is possible; everything is negotiable. Whatever the outer circumstances, INTJs are ever perceiving inner pattern-forms and using real-world materials to operationalize them. Others may see what is and wonder why; INTJs see what might be and say "Why not?!" Paradoxes, antinomies, and other contradictory phenomena aptly express these intuitors' amusement at those whom they feel may be taking a particular view of reality too seriously. INTJs enjoy developing unique solutions to complex problems.

* Famous INTJs: Dan Aykroyd, actor (The Blues Brothers)
* Susan B. Anthony, suffragist
* Arthur Ashe, tennis champion
* Augustus Caesar (Gaius Julius Caesar Octavianus), Emperor of Rome
* Jane Austen, author (Pride and Prejudice)
* William J. Bennett, "drug czar"
* William F. Buckley, Jr., conservative political advocate
* Raymond Burr, actor (Perry Mason, Ironsides)
* Chevy Chase (Cornelius Crane), actor (Fletch)
* Phil Donahue, television talk show host
* Michael Dukakis, governor of Mass., 1988 U.S. Dem. pres. candidate
* Greg Gumbel, television sportscaster
* Hannibal, Carthaginian military leader
* Veronica Hamel, actress (Hill Street Blues)
* Orel Leonard Hershiser, IV, major league baseball pitcher
* Peter Jennings, television newscaster
* Charles Everett Koop, former U.S. surgeon general
* Ivan Lendl, tennis champion
* C. S. Lewis, author (The Chronicles of Narnia)
* Joan Lunden, television talk show host
* Edwin Moses, U.S. olympian (hurdles)
* Martina Navratilova, tennis champion
* Charles Rangel, U. S. Representative, D-N.Y.
* Pernell Roberts, actor (Bonanza)
* Maria Owens Shriver, television newscaster
* Josephine Tey (Elizabeth Mackintosh), mystery writer (Brat Farrar)
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o U.S. Presidents: Chester A. Arthur
o Calvin Coolidge
o Thomas Jefferson
o John F. Kennedy
o James K. Polk
o Woodrow Wilson


Fictional:
* Julius Caesar
* Mr. Darcy (Pride and Prejudice)
* Gandalf the Grey (J. R. R. Tolkein's Middle Earth books)
* Hannibal Lecter (Silence of the Lambs)
* Professor Moriarty, Sherlock Holmes' nemesis
* Ensign Ro (Star Trek--the Next Generation)
* Rosencrantz and Guildenstern (Hamlet)
* George Smiley, John le Carre's master spy
* Clarice Starling (Silence of the Lambs)

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