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i'm scared.

doot doo do

so maybe this semester i'll only post when i am drunk. and at this rate that may be quite often. classes are not that hard and i have nothing else to do.....

in a related note i learned about the people who live across the hall from me. so apparently the guys that lived there last semester moved out so now three girls are living there. and tonight they just happened to bring a keg home with them. luckily, i don't really care at all and i don'r think alex does either so if they are loud we;re not going to complain. so whatever.

definitely though, i wish i was less of a push over. people should not walk home; they should stay here where there is a place for them to sleep and be loved or both at the same time. i can;t fix anything

i feel sick. ugh. i love everyone.

i'm on the outside, i'm looking in

it's stuck in my head for no apparent reason.

a new semester, a new blog. i don't know. it's good to be back with all the people i care about. i think it's going to be a fun semester, but also a really hard semester. people (including me) are going to be put to the test in terms of many different things. there's so much i want to do and that i want to change... we'll see how much of it actually happens.

joe wakes up from sleeping in my chair only due to changes in the environment around him. a metaphor perhaps? i'm not sure, but it seems to work.

i'm glad that classes are good and partying with miklos and phil is fun. i still hate the fake pretenses that people make, but go along with them anyway and make up my own because i don't know what else to do. do your own thing i guess is the only advice i can give. do what you believe in. whatever.

puzzles are fun and keep me occupied when i want to escape the world. of course books are even better for that, but spmehow it's harder to make the time for that kind of commitment. long philisophical discussions with my blog are the only kind i can manage at this point. or maybe it's just long discussions in my head that don't come out quite right. i guess it doesn't matter because no one reads this anyway.

i'm trying as hard as i can to be good and myself as much as possible. it's weird now because i think my classes distract me from my other parts of life instead of the other way around. i remember when sns and my different friendships were the distractions from life and classes. just an odd reversal.

i know things will turn out ok, even good, because they always do... i just wish they could be better.

what's behind the facade?

i wish i were a boy so i could sing "the confrontation" from jekyll and hyde. of course, i'd also have to be an amazing actor and singer as well.... what an amazing song; and an amazing show! that's the song in which dr. jekyll and mr. hyde (played by one actor) argue about who will survive. awesome.

in other news, i choreographed a tap number to kermit the frog singing "happy feet." i think it's cool at least, and it will be lots of fun. now i just have to talk to the dancer's symposium people about being involved. at least laurel and didi are really enthusiastic about tapping. (and me too of course. it's been about two years since i've really danced)

back to school tomorrow. nice 5-6 hour car ride with miklos and aaron, followed by a production meeting and scotch'n'soda board craziness. woohoo.

we shall see.

sheepies

the new semester hasn't even started yet, and already i feel like crying because of scotch'n'soda.

maybe i should just shut my mouth and not say anything. i don't know what to do anymore. i'm sorry i bother.

i'll just go back to being a little sheep following what everyone else is doing and saying.

baaaaaaaaaaa. baaaaaaaaa.

(sheeps baa with their tongues sticking out)

baaaaaaaaaa.

cute cute cute!!

look at all these cute little fluffy bears! and especially these guys.

i love them all!

a semester in review

so it's been a long couple of months; of course flying by as fast as possible.

some good stuff:
awesome birthday and halloween party
pumpakins!
puzzles
lots of taboo and apples to apples
all those nights at miklos and phil's place
beach boys with connor and joe (and beth at woodscotch)
steak and wine
the joe schmo show
the ataris
overall goodness of sns
awesome grades (straight a's after i dropped logic)
living with cool people
fun classes (believe it or not...)
shrimp scampi, pumkin pie, and lots of cookies
.cool
meatfuck

some bad stuff:
being part of two failing director's proposals
logic
pink drinks made by joe the poo
sns board craziness (not all bad...)
not being on stage and not going to be on stage
genetics final
being bored
not being able to paint the fence
unhappy friends

overall, it's been an interesting semester. accomplished a lot i guess, and failed at some other stuff. now there's a whole other semester to look forward to and worry about. lots more parties and lots and lots more sns politics....

things to do this semester:
keep up the good grades
not let sns drive me crazy
choreograph a tap dance to kermit the frog singing happy feet for dancer's symposium
keep singing
be happy
more cookies and pies and brownies and scampi and fetticini alfredo and steak and good food
become a wine conisiour
paint the fence again (maybe just for me this time)
get more fluffies
go skiing
more puzzles
carnival punch made with everclear and kool-aid
fruit gin
make waffles with my new waffle iron from christmas
take good care of my new sandals
etc
etc
etc

yay!

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